Hello, peeps! Before we proceed, I want to warn you guys that I'm going to be a bit emotional. So here we go :^)
Hu uh, no, guys. I'm not gonna tell you guys about my love life or broken relationship because believe it or not, I never had a boyfriend before, yep I've been living as a boyfriendless person for, already 19 years. Hahaha (It's never my intention to ask anyone's sympathy by telling this okay!)
So what I'm about to tell you is about my broken friendship with a different sex (I'm a female by the way, yeah obviously).
The story begins with a boy, let call him J. About 5 years ago, I and J started to get close when I asked him for some helps in a geographic project. Apparently, he was the only boy that really wanted to help me out after I asked like a dozen of my classmates to lend me a hand. Then, after that, we magically became friends, and ultimately close friends.
We became even closer in form 3 and in form 4, I did mention about being best friends but unfortunately, he rejected me (so sad, right? I know!). Nevertheless, we were still close after that rejection.
Day after day passed and we already in form 5. This was when I started to notice my feelings, undoubtedly, towards J. However, I didn't confess to him straight away (LOL who would do something as stupid as that, I wonder?). Also, it was the year when he finally asked me to be his best friend like for real, guys. I hesitated to accept that because I don't wanna be friendzoned by the guy like LOL. But then, after like a gazillion thoughts, I finally accepted to be his best friend.
And then... one night, I confessed to him and like all other guys would say to someone they didn't have the same feelings- I am no good enough for you. There are more guys that deserve you- (Eff you, jerk!) Guess what did I react to that rejection? I was just being the cool girl like I always did. Hahahaha. Surprisingly, we were still friends like usual after that! Like, wow! Till the end of the year, he got himself a girlfriend. And our friendship started to tear apart, somehow. But we were still in contact, though, it was not as often as it used to be.
And this went on and on till we went to our separate lives, college life (for me) and university life (for him). At our beginning of our college/university lives, we encountered the same problem; lack of fluency in English. Our English was so terrible that we didn't have the confidence to pursue whatever we were doing. We felt inferior and besides, all of the students in our university/college were from MRSM and boarding schools that are tops in Malaysia. So we shared our problems with each other and tried to give some motivational advice to one another (even though both of us were depressed as eff LOL) In other words, we kind of support each other because only us would understand how depressed it was to be competing with people who we couldn't stand a chance, aite? (at least, that's what we thought)
Till one night, we kinda stop texting each other (sometimes, only once a week). Oh ya, I forgot to mention that we texted almost every night back then (like a couple, huh? Nah we were just best friends)
Now, I don't even feel like texting him because I get some issues with his girlfriend. I never liked her, anyway. Honestly, never did. Not because she became his girlfriend, but she is just a kind of girl that I could never blend in with, you know? Ever since form 1, I never wanted to even approach her but she somehow managed to be in my girlfriends group (there are 6 of us) because Y, my close friend, felt pity to her in form 3 when that girl seemed lonely as her bestfriend move away (Y and her were in the same class and she sat beside Y that time). So Yaya had no choice but being kind towards her (Y is a kind person to start with) However, she mistaken that kindness and thought Y was her best friend (LOL it's is indeed funny) and suddenly she ended up in the group.
The thing went rough after his girlfriend got jealous because J replied to my tweet (It sounds stupid, I know). There's no effing reason at all to be jealous, seriously. J was just kinda concerned about me after seeing a depressed tweet of mine because he was my effing best friend so I didn't see any problem with a best friend concerning about his best friend. Bij, you seriously need to chill your ass out. After that incident, I blocked both J and his girlfriend on Twitter to continue my happy life. Also, I 100% stop texting J unless there's an important business.
That's how our friendship broke. They said bros before hoes but you clearly chose your hoe over your best friend who has been there for you for years. I'm glad we ended the friendship (to be precise, I ended it) because, apparently, we don't need each other's company anymore, right? :^)
